Well, I figure it's time to write, but now I'm not sure I have anything uplifting or worthwhile to say. I really really am extremely depressed today, and I don't really see a way out of it for now. It's August 14, but the weather thinks it's December 14. It's cloudy and rainy and cold. I need to see the sun. I'm trying to work on changing my surroundings to where I will see a lot more of the sun, but I keep running into dead-end after dead-end. It's so discouraging, and there's only so many times you can beat your head into a brick wall repeatedly without needing to take a small break.
Yes, gentle readers, if there was ever a time for what has been coined a mental health day, today would be it. Three things are problems with that plan, though. One is the aforementioned weather. Second is the fact that I have no money to burn because I'm desperately trying to save up for my escape into the sun. And third, the biggest one, is my health. I have one more day after today of my antibiotics, but until they are completely out of my system, I will be unable to go anywhere, so harsh and horrible are the negative side effects. What are the side effects? Well, think about having a really bad flu, and all of the side effects you might get with that. I'm getting all of those, all at once. I've been in bed more than I've been sitting up. That's why I've been so quiet here.
I miss Daniel a lot all the time, but it seems to be worse now. I am the world's worst by myself person when I am not feeling well. I had a friend who is also in a wheelchair come over and try to hang out yesterday, and we enjoyed a good meal, but he seems really preoccupied right now, and I highly doubt he said 20 words to me in the entire four or five hour time period that he was here, although he assured me he did enjoy himself. But it was weird not being able to really communicate. This guy is usually quiet, but he outdid himself this time, and then of course I was second-guessing myself trying to figure out if I did anything wrong.
But I am working on getting a job. No callback yet from Wal-Mart, but a friend I went to middle school with an Alabama opened a computer parts store that also sells ham radio parts and accessories. He wants someone to be on the other end of live chat technical support on his website. So I'm working towards getting my ham license so that I can speak and understand that language.
So I think I will go study a little bit and then maybe find some things to cheer myself up, even if it's just curling up with my kindle. No doubt any minute I will be required by my body to lay down again anyway. But now you are all updated.
Hopefully, there is sunshine and love wherever you are.