I used to be a big believer in prayer. Anytime someone else had a need I would ask God to meet that need. On many occasions I have done what I can to help them meet that need. After a lot of years I asked a friend why with my being such a big believer in prayer, why was my own life such a fucking waste. He suggested maybe it because I always pray for everyone else's needs and not my own. I just assumed that other people would be praying for me. Quid pro quo. Now I simply choose to not believe in prayer because the only other alternatives are that nobody considers me worth praying for -or- that God isn't listening to them. Why? Can someone tell me why?