If any of you are loyal readers of my blog, by now you probably think that I've fallen off the face of the earth, possibly never to return! I'm happy to report that that's not the case at all! It's just that over the last six weeks or so some things have been taking place in my life that were, and still are very personal, and I didn't feel like it would be the best thing for everyone involved for me to put everything here for the whole world to see. Maybe I will at some point, but at this point I just feel like it's better off left alone. What I will say at the moment about the entire situation though, is the fact that I've always said that everything happens for a reason, and in this case, although cliché, it couldn't be more true!
A relationship, and no, I'm not talking about in the romantic or intermittent sense of the word, that I thought were going to last forever has now all but fallen apart, but in a strange sort of way, the fact that that relationship has fallen apart, in my opinion, to make way for what I'm beginning to realize I truly deserve! The other individual in this relationship, and you know who you are, had tried to tell me almost from day one of me wanting an intimate relationship that I deserve better than what this individual was willing, or able to give me. I insisted that that wasn't the case, and that this individual was the only individual I could ever see myself with in any intermittent sort of way. Well, it's now been just over six weeks since we had any sort of conversation at all.
In that time, I've come to realize that something else this individual once told me rings painfully true: I love them enough to let them go. Now, for all you potential critics out there who may say by the time I get to this point: yeah, but you just said that the relationship, no matter what context it was in, had all but fallen apart. How can you say you love them enough to let them go? It boils down to this: when you have the depth behind the friendship that we did, in my opinion, it's all but impossible not to love this individual on some level..... Always!
As I wrap this up, and barren couple things that I want you, Mr. X, to remember: first and foremost is the fact that I don't hate you, never have, and I absolutely never will! When all this went down, you were only doing what I had always asked you did do, almost since the moment we met, you were following your heart, and acting on what you were feeling. I don't resent you for that, I can't. Second is the fact that no matter where 2010 takes us, I'm always, always, always, always going to be here if you need something!! That's not going to change no matter where I'm at in my life, who I'm working with, or who I'm dating! Lastly and most importantly is the fact that I'm never going to stop loving you in some capacity! At this point though, as I said earlier, I love you enough to let you go!