Well, for a second time in about 10 days, I will be headed back to my mom's house later today. The first time I went it was for my sister's bachelorette party. This time I'm actually going home for the wedding, and when I come back, they will be husband and wife. In many, many, many, many ways, I am very excited about this, and will tell anyone who will listen that I couldn't have chosen a better soul mate for my little sister!!! I can't wait to see them start a new chapter in their lives! You know, over the course of my 24 years, I've often heard people say that two people who are getting married were truly meant to be together, and I know it sounds cliché, but these two were truly meant to be together, and that's all there is to it!
If you took the time to read the title of this entry, and you know me at all, you have probably already realized that there is something behind that title. If you have realized this, or even thought this, you would be right. You see, even though I am extremely elated to be a part of this once-in-a-lifetime chapter unfolding, there is a part of me that if a little bit sad, although probably not for the reasons any of you might think. I'm sad because for the second time in about 10 days, I have to leave my two best friends for about another two weeks. Granted, Chan I can talk to on the phone, and I'll also see him at the wedding, as he is planning on coming. My other best friend, and sometimes closer friend, isn't going to be so easy to make contact with while I'm gone.
At this point, our only means of communication is via the Internet, and while I will probably have computer access while I'm gone, that doesn't necessarily mean that I'll have messenger access. Usually there isn't a day that goes by that we don't talk at least for a brief moment, even if it's just to check in, and now I may have to go to whole weeks without those daily conversations. That sucks, and if I'm being completely honest with myself, and all of you, I really don't like it! I understand that some of you may be thinking something along the lines of: don't most people enjoy being around their families enough that they can go without communicating with the "outsiders" in their lives for a little while?
If you are thinking that, please don't misunderstand the message I'm trying to convey. I love them all dearly, and love spending time with them, but you see, my two best friends have become such an integral part of my life, that they too are now two people that I look at as family, and just as with my blood family, I have a very difficult time knowing that I won't be able to "see" them for almost an entire two weeks, and know that they're okay.
Since I can't take both of them with me, I guess I'm just going to have to work with what I have. With that being said, all I can do at this point is hope that at some point during the unfolding of this new chapter, I will have a chance to catch up with both of them, and let them know that I am thinking about them. That option still sucks, but it's all I can do at this point.
Chan: I know I tell you this at least once a day, and I know you you know it, and aren't going to forget it before I see you again, but remember, I love you, and I always will!
Daniel: I have also told you many times how much your friendship means to me, and I'm quite positive that you're not going to forget that before I come back, but for some reason I feel compelled to write it once again! There's a dynamic to our friendship that I haven't shared with anyone else, and I probably never will! It is truly unique, and that's what I love! Thanks for just being you!!! 