Star's Stellar Journal

Hello Everyone,

A lot has happened since I blogged last back in June. I lost the job I had at the storage facility he said I wasn't reaching any of the higher standards he was expecting from someone who worked there for a little over 2 years said I wasn't taking the initiative so he let me go the first week in July. Which now I'm thankful for because at the end of August as some of you know my Papal took very sick and he died in the hospital in the first week of October. I miss him very much.

Since he entered the hospital my Grandmother's Alzheimer's has gotten steadily worse to where we can't leave her alone. She forgets to use her walker and falls or forgets to go to the bathroom when she needs to go and has accidents or can't make it here in time. She can not clean herself so we have to bathe her and she can't cook for herself so basically at first I was working taking care of her for 12 hours 5 days a week. That was to much for me I couldn't handle it kept making me sick. So they shortened it to 3 days a week Mon. Wed. and Fri for 12 hours but that didn't work either so they tried just 6 hours 5 days a week and that was working fine though it didn't leave me much time to do other things I enjoyed doing like spending time with friends and family and church activities.

Then they discovered that the girl who was doing the other 6 hours a day wasn't doing all the things she was suppose to like bathing her or fixing her a big breakfast or doing any cleaning or laundry like she said she would do. Plus she would be very late sometimes without calling to let the person on the night shift know she would be late. She wasn't returning calls we made to talk about her scheduling for the days ahead and stuff and she kept coming in sick with throat problems and took breaks outside to smoke leaving granny alone. She made the same amount that I did but She wouldnt' buy some decent casual cloths to come to work in she wore sweats that had holes in them in the seat of her britches with no underwear unless it was a thong and that's fine around your own home but in someone Else's house? Someone you work for? I'm sorry but that is NASTY! So they fired her.  I took back over till they found someone else it wasn't any easier for me and they knew the 3 day was to much so now I just work on Monday's and Friday's from 7a-7p. So the rest of the week I am off and able to recuperate and do more of the things I like to do. Its been that way for several months now they fired her back in...January or February I think.

I started taking Karate Classes in March on Tuesday Evenings to help with my weight loss and to help get me more active and around more people my own age. Its hard work for me because I"m so out of shape but its a lot of fun too. I've also been helping out more at the church in the Kindergarten Sunday School and Wednesday evening classes. And I'm also on the Nursery and Junior Church rotation and I am in the Drama Class which meats on Sunday nights. We do skits and sign-language to music.

My face painting has really taken off since spring Started!!! I had a gig every weekend in March except for the first weekend. Don't have anything in April yet. But I'm already book every an event for every weekend in May except for the last and I have one mid week event in May also!!! I'm so thrilled my face painting is doing so well I love doing it! There's nothing like not letting them see the design till you are completely done having them close there eyes put a mirror in front of them then tell them to open their eyes. First there eyes about bug out with surprise and big grins cross their faces and sometimes they laugh for squeal for joy at the sigh of themselves it is so much fun plus I get to play with tons of glitter!!! I love sparkly stuff so this Hobby suits me!! lol

Back in Feb we had a grease fire in the kitchen and we finally got the finishing touches done to to fix the damage that was done. Had to get a new stove, new cabinets, and new flooring had to get the living room and hallways repainted because of all the smoke damage. But its finally all done!!!

I'm going to a doctor this Thursday in the hope he will let me do the weight loss shot program he's doing I'll tell you more about that after I learn if he's going let me do it or not. I hope he will at least enough to where I'll be at a safe weight to get the breast reduction I need so badly. To help my back and my breathing. So please be remembering me in your prayers! Also been having some insurance problems since the fire the company we were with doesn't want to renew so we've been looking for a new company and I think dad said he found one that would take us so We seem to be doing better on that subject. Well I'm tired and its almost time for my shift at Granny's to end so I'm going to stop for tonight and hopefully I'll continue to blog regularly from now on if not every day at least every few days. Take Care and bye till we Talk again!!

Hey Everyone,

I'm sorry I haven't been blogging like I should. Some stuff has been going on that I can't publish online and wouldn't know what to say about it anyway. Some of you already know the details so I won't go into it on here.

I'm slowly getting use to the contacts they dry my eyes out really bad so I'm having to keep eye drops in my purse and add them often. And I have trouble remembering not to rub my eyes cause when I do it nocks them out of place and somtimes out all together then I have to try to put them back in which is annoying lol. Other then that I like them its so nice to be able to paint my own face when practicing my painting and not have to but nose to glass with the mirror to see what I 'm painting and having my brushes keep hitting the glass and messing up my designs. 

Bible Camp started this week so on the days I could I went up to the camp and taught swimming lessons to the kids and added an extra set of eyes to keep and eye on them as they played to make sure they were playing safely. I also ate dinner at the camp they always have good food. And I stayed for the chapel service to hear the speaker speak. He was my college religions of the world professor and I always enjoy hearing him speak because he uses funny stories,props,and visuals. He is a enthusiastic speaker and loves to laugh and smile its hard to be bored when he is speaking I wish he was my church's pastor or youth leader or some thing like that so I could hear him speak more often.

Camp will be for 2 more weeks then a week off for the 4th during which on that Wensday I'm going to Dolly Wood with my parents and a friend for 1 day and that is our vacation lol. Then the following week is day camp week 1 but I'm going back to Marion, Indiana that week for the Fellowship of Christian Magician's conference to learn more face painting. Then the week after that is the last week of camp. 

The Drama group did a skit Wensday night and I got to use my face painting abilities as part of the costumes which is very cool. 3 of the youth invovled I had to give them wite faces and dark grey shaddowing around their eyes so they looked kind of dead cause they were deamons. And for Me and the other Angels I just put glitter around the eyes to make them stand out more and just be sparkly and pretty. It skit turned out very well and the make up effects really added to the skit. I hope we can do more stuff in the future that will alow me to use my face painting abilities more often. Well that's all for today I guess I'll try to write again soon.

Hey everyone,

I survived the 9 to 5 work week but I was soo exhausted I was sleeping in most of last week so I didn't get on much. Plus last week was our church's Vacation Bible school and that was from 6pm to 9pm but I was often still at the church at 10 pm because of planning the next day's lessons and getting the prep work all done. I was at the Church all day last Sunday when VBS began because I went to Sunday School then during church got the first nights lesson materials ready then practicing the music and signlanguage with the drama team for a few hours then spent the rest of the day decorating our room for VBS. I was soo tired thankfully I was off on Monday due to the holiday. I got in so late and slept in and then showered and spent a little time online or watching movies then fixed dinner and then went back to VBS lol.

My trial set of Contacts arrive don Thursday so I had to wake up early that morning and go and get taught how to care for them and how to put them in and take them out. It takes me a while to put them in because of a bad blinking reflex when anything gets near my eyes. My vison dosen't seem as good with them but the eye doc said it would be somewhat different from my glasses and would take getting use to. Other then that nothing much has been happening. I g2g for now its starting to storm so take care!!!  Byess

Sorry I haven't blogged this week I've been so tired. As most of you know I'm use to working part time with mabye 10 hours a week. Well this week my boss is on vacation and I'm filling in for him for the whole week 9 to 5 and its taken it's tole. I'm so exhousted I keep yawning every few minutes even though I'm making sure to get at least 8 hours of sleep at night I wake up more tired then I was the day before!

Thankfully tomorrow is the last day, but I won't be able to sleep in any until Monday because Saturday I'm getting up early to get groceries then I have a tentative plan to meet Ryan Carter at Huddle House for some coffee if we get back from groceries in time. He's the guy I met last week with my Friend Megan and her Husband. And then of course teaching the Kindergarten Sunday School class and plus Vacation  Bible school starts Sunday night and I still have to get the decorations for our room done! As my friend berlin would say.... oi vey! lol

Thanks to Daniel for fixing the web chat page to where is dosn't have to have the active x control and I can now access it at work. It has kept me sane this week, that and my books and music on IPOD, but mostly the chat room and being able to talk to someone while being cooped up in the office all day with no one to talk to.

In June I'll start teaching swimming lessons again at the Bible Camp on the mountain I'm looking forward to that. Being there cheers me up because I love to swim and I enjoy teaching others how to do something I love so much. Its fun to watch the kids faces light up as they master each new skill they learn and when they finnally put it all together and figure out how to move in the water in ways that help them float to make swimming easier. And by the end of the week they are able to swim on their own without help its a wonderful feeling knowing that they will be able to keep afloat should they ever end up in a large bodie water wether by accident or on purpose.

 Plus during all that training they are getting the love and attention they might not get all the time at home and we are able to share God's love with them and to show them that they don't have to be dressed or act a certain way in order to be accepted, that we love them for who they are. It's wonderful when they happen to recognize me in the local stores and run up to give me a hug and to thank me for teaching them to swim and how to enjoy the water and not be afraide of it.

Then in July the week after the 4th we are going to Pigeon Forge for a day maybe 2 to go to Dolly Wood and maybe some other attractions depending on money and time. I'm taking my friend Jennifer with me so I'll have someone to ride the rides with because my parents are more into the live shows and shopping then the rides. So that will be fun. Then the week of the 15th I'm going to Marion, Indiana for the week long National Fellowship of Christian Magician's Conference! Gona be spending a week with face painters, magicians, clowns, jugglers, balloon twisters, story tellers, chalk artists, ventriloquists, and puppeteers its going to be a blast!! Then that Friday Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows part 2 comes out in Theaters so that will be something to look forward to that weekend or the following week.

Other than this stuff there's nothing going on really, still looking for a full time job with benefits because as most of you know I get kicked off my mom's insurance this October 1st my 26th birthday. It's hard no one around here is hiring full time unless you are like a welder or factory assembly line worker and I can't do those because I can't tolerate the heat it makes breathing more difficult for me. I'll keep you guys posted on stuff as it comes along and I have the time and inspiration to blog.

I like blogging but I'm not always inspired to blog. I don't want to get on here and just be like Hi I spent all day in the chat room bye  I want to blog about stuff that happens or is going to happen and how I feel or think about it. So I can "get stuff off my chest" and in that way allow you all to get to know me better. So if its not an everyday read I'm sorry that's just the way it is. Some weeks I blog more then others it just depends on whats going on and any inspiration it gives me. So that's all for today, or at least right now. Talk to yall later Byess!

Hey Everyone,

I got groceries this morning with my parents, then I met my friend Megan, her husband and their friend Ryan Carter. We sat at the picnic tables and talked and joked around sharing memories and movie likes and dislikes and stuff like that. Megan and Tyler had to an hour and a half later because they had another appointment to keep. Ryan and I sayed for another hour and 10 minutes just talking. He was very nice we are planning to meet next Saturday and get some coffiee. Other then that nothing much going on so I'll talk to yall later. Byess

I'm sorry I've been so neglectful in my blogging, but I've had no inspiration lately. It's all Berlin's fault always picking on me. I do have a little something to write about today though. I visited my Friend Megan yesterday to mee her twin baby boys for the first time. They are adorable! After I got over my nervs ( I"m not around babies much specialy new borns) I held them and even got to feed them a little bit. They seemed to like my big boobs lol.

I was still nervous when I held them that I'd do something wrong but I guess everyone is like that when holding babies for the first time. They have good aim at that age.....she would change their diapers on the couch where I was sitting with their heads toward me and their leggs toward her and as soon as she'd get the diaper off they'd take aim and fire trying to mark me as their territory she said lol. I had a good time visiting with her! I'm plainning to possibly see her tomorrow and help her out for a few hours.  She's also trying to hook me up on a date and having me meet her and her hubby and I think his brother at the walking track Saturday. Duno how I feel about that I told her I'd give it a try ya know since trying on my own isn't doing any good.

And then next week my boss is going on vacation so I'm working the whole week on a 9 to 5 schedule to fill in for him. I'm gona be sooo bored sitting in an office chair all day and no face book to entertain me! At least I can access my netflix account at work and watch movies. Plus I have my books on IPOD but still its gona be long days lol.

I went to my CF doctor on Tuesday they want me start some nasty saline stuff that is inhaled for 10 minutes 2 times a day I may have mentioned this in an earlier blogg but I never started the medicine cause I didn't want to, but they are making me now so we'll see how that goes. And I also saw my Psychiatrist Tuesday and she said I was doing very well and that I had come along way since I started seeing her in November. So things are looking better for me. Still no full time job offer yet but I"m still looking and applying so keep me in mind! Well that's all for today. Talk to yall later.

Hey Everyone,

I'm feeling better, but unspired to blog right now I don't know what to write about other then I face painted at the Kids Fun Night for the Strawberry Festival yesterday afternoon. I made a good poffit off of it and got to make a lot of kids smile. I was again to busy to take pictures of the kids when I was finsihed and I didn't really know anyone enough to trust them with my camera. I went to the craft and food vendors earlier today to look around and stuff but it was kinda gloomy cause a storm had just hit and alot of the vendors had their stuff covered up to protect it. If the weather clears we might go back down to get some food there and look around some more. And depending on the weather I may get to paint during the Parade tomorrow we'll have to see. Anyway I guess that's all for today. I'm sorry it's such a short entry but like I said no inspiration at the moment. Maybe tomorrow will be better.