Outside the Box

Again another long passage of time between visits here.  Too much stuff to post since the last time.  So it will be water under the bridge and I'll begin anew!  I forget how theraputic it is to write here...so see you later!

Lots of emotions going on right now. I have no clue who is reading this, but it's OK, I don't need to know.  I am glad it is a place where I can be me, anonymously on the Internet.

I have a facebook account, lots of people from my past, good, and maybe not so good.  One old acquaintance contacted me, added her, and after one day, when I shared my views on the earth hour to conserve and sit in the dark, I  did the opposite, all lights on...she took me off her friend list.  She can't handle me..that's her problem not mine.   I am not going to make myself conform to anyone else's image of who they think I should be anymore.

Fuck off...

sorry Daniel...it really felt good to say that!!! LOL

These guys just don't get enough exposure...if you are reading this, YOU ROCK! 

I'll update this as I get them.

I don't know who reads these blogs, and right at this moment I don't even care.   My daughter, the mother of my precious grandson,  is riding an emotional rollercoaster and we just happen to be in the cars right behind her. If someone does not get their act together, we may just have to call Guido in for an attitude adjustment.  Hoping for the best.   I will delete this message if there's even a glimmer of hope.

Have a nice day.

Edit 03/11/08

My son-in-law is divorcing my daughter, the past couple weeks have been extreemly heartbreaking. Not only has it devistated my child, but like a pebble being tossed in the still water, the ripple effect has reached everyone who knows and loved them. Today, she seemed stronger, more confident as she faces this new road ahead of her. I wish her more love then she's ever been given before and strength as they continue to partner in raising our grandson together. I love you both so very much.

Update 06/23/08

The divorce was final last week.  My daughter took back her maiden name.  I learned last week there is another woman in his life.   If he didn't find happiness w/ my daughter will he with anyone else? Are we ever REALLY happy? 

I love YouTube.  One can honestly find anything on it, and the amazing thing about it is it's not even been online for two years yet.  Since I saw this icon for inserting YouTube videos, and I haven't blogged in awhile, I thought I'd put on a few of my favorites.  Enjoy!

My most recent one is a song that I have been trying to find out the name and group for years, I really love this video!   Ladies and Gentlemen, Dire Straits and Walk of Life!

Next is an old Keith Green Video from the 700 Club back in the early 80's.  http://www.lastdaysministries.org/  Keith's music always inspired me to be the best for Christ that I could.  He was definately a candle in the wind!

This is probaby one of the funniest videos I have ever seen...

Ok, I know what you are thinking...Wot the F**k is that video following Keith Green for???  I don't know?  I just did it!

These two guys are hilarious, I know it's not Mother's Day, but it sure brings back memories of sibling rivalry!

These are the most recent favorites, I'll probably add to it!  Hey Daniel...missing you, and I hope your invisible friend takes the advice of your recent YouTube submission and amscrays! That was great!

2007 has been a year of life lessons that's for sure.  I cannot chronical everything that has happened, because to be honest, I am sure that there are things that I blocked out and things that I want to block out.   

I strived so hard to be the kind of person that God can one day say, "Well done my good and faithful servant." Some were receptive to it, some called me a "butt-in-ski" for trying to follow my conscience. So good intentions can be misunderstood, which is heart breaking and hard to comprehend especially when I so wanted them to be a part of our lives.   

Admitting recently that I am also a very selfish person was hard to do.  We tried to do a good thing for a family member who had been majorly shit upon and lost everything they owned.  This family member should never have been seperated from where they came from, but we did what we had to do at the time.  Being away from family and being in a place where being normal was not normal caused great oppression in our home.   It was time to return them to where they belonged.  It was a long four months.  

I am hoping that things will return to normal for all involved.  I am having a hard time reconciling all that happened, but in time, it will be a distant memory.   

One of my husband's brothers died the other day, he was in prison and we didn't even know it...we had not heard from him or about him in over 10 years.  How sad.  I heard he found Jesus...For that I am thankful!  

My family & friends mean more then life to me, even if they don't know it.  Last February when my sisters and my mom and dad and niece were here with us was one of the greatest times ever...those type of memories I never want to forget.