Amber's Abode

Hopefully, what doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

Well, I made it to the other side of my surgery.  All in all, it went really well.  It was really scary at first because I went in on my own.  Also, my ride there was really late, so when I got there, people were literally waiting in the operating room for me, and there was really no time to do or say any of the comforting things that would be nice to hear before you lose consciousness, especially when you're terrified.  But my new guy is so much better than my old guy that it went really well, with surprisingly very very little pain.  I mean, it hurt me less than my old one hurt all the time.

Until now.  Right now, this second, it hurts to even breathe.  They just gave me some pain meds, so I hope it will get better, but I don't know.  My whole abdomen feels like one big bruise.  It's mostly the old site.  The new place is closer to my side, and doesn't hurt.  But the old site is still infected, and he couldn't just stitch it closed, especially with infection in it.  If he did, the infection might travel to the new site, which would be really really bad.  So I just have to, as is my usual state lately, grin and bear it.  For Lord knows how long.

I'm still happy I did it.  Other than the pain, I feel worlds better already.  More energetic, like my old self.  Especially not falling asleep every five seconds randomly.  So I know this was a good thing in the long run, and probably even saved my life.  I can now look forward to enjoying the summer, and maybe, just maybe even getting a volunteer job or going back to school.  I'm taking it slow for now, but it sure is fun to be able to dream again.

Thank you all for thinking about and/or praying for me through this process, and please continue to do so.  Because I've heard that it might take an entire month to completely heal and lose the pain.  And because of things that have happened to me in my life, I refuse to pray directly for patience.  :-).  It's like that ancient Chinese curse: May you live in interesting times.

I think I will go sit in the sun for a while now with my kindle.

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